Crossing the Palace Fighting Fox Harem

Chapter 141: Eternal disaster

This seemed like a warning, but also like a declaration, and it was also an impulse that Yun Zhen had suppressed for ten years.

"I don't understand what you are saying..." Baogui Fei did not struggle, but slowly lowered her head.

Yun Zhen lifted her chin and captured her lips without any hesitation.

After a brief intertwining of lips and tongues, Yun Zhen pinched Baogui Fei's chin, not allowing her to avoid his gaze, and asked, "Is this clear enough?"

Concubine Baogui couldn't utter a word, and there was no expression on her pale face.

"You've pushed me to the brink of despair, Bao'er." Yun Zhen closed his eyes with a low sigh and said painfully, "Before my last bit of rationality is forced to collapse by you, I beg you to slap me to wake me up, otherwise..."

Otherwise, things might really develop to a point where Lian Yunzhen can't control it.

"You pushed everything onto me again..." Baogui Fei's voice rang out softly in this seemingly stagnant space, and a thin layer of tears covered her eyes again. Her pale lips trembled slightly as she breathed in and out, and she said, "Just like ten years ago, you pushed everything onto me again... Why am I the one who makes the decisions every time? Why do you always just respect my choices silently? Do you know that I am also afraid, afraid of making the wrong decision... Until now, I still ask myself, if I had not entered the palace ten years ago, if I had let you take me away ten years ago, then... would we be happier than we are now?... You gave me the opportunity, gave me the choice, gave me respect, and gave me the freedom to decide everything... But do you know that the consequence of you giving me all these decisions is that you gave me the pain of being unable to rest and regret for the next ten years... Now, you are still like this... Yun Zhen, you haven't changed at all, it's me who has changed, I don't want to choose anymore..."

"Bao'er..." Yun Zhen's heart was deeply shaken. He had never thought that the full freedom he had given Bao'er in the beginning would turn out to be a poisonous sting. He wanted to explain something, but his throat seemed to have been cut and he could not make a sound.

"Yun Zhen, Yun Zhen..." Baogui Fei's hoarse voice became even deeper, with a hint of painful sobs.

"Bao'er, I'm just more afraid of losing you than anyone else... I just told myself that no matter what choice you make, I will support you... I didn't expect, I didn't expect..." Yun Zhen tried to explain, but he couldn't explain it clearly. He never thought that his absolute obedience to Bao'er would bring Bao'er great pain in the past ten years.

"If you had been a little more domineering, a little more insistent, a little more tough... If you had insisted on not letting me enter the palace no matter what, maybe we wouldn't be standing here talking now..." A bleak smile appeared on Baogui Concubine's face, "but we would be in a farm in the countryside, or in the wilderness, with children playing around, working from sunrise to sunset, living a simple and peaceful life..."

"Baoer..." Yun Zhen interrupted Baoer in a low voice and closed his eyes.

The beautiful scenes that Baogui Fei longed for were like thorns that tightly strangled Yun Zhen’s bleeding heart.

But Bao Er seemed not to hear Yun Zhen's voice. His eyes were fixed on the orange lights beside him that were dimmed by tears. His mind seemed to have drifted to another place. He continued to talk to himself, "Yun Zhen, are there still peach blossoms outside the city?... I don't know why, but I always dream of peach blossoms recently... They bloomed for a full ten miles on the post road. Those pink petals were blown by the wind, like fragments of the blue sky breaking and dripping blood, sweeping across the sky and the earth... Yun Zhen, you can interpret dreams, can you tell me what this indicates? In those pale dreams, I only remember the scarlet color of the petals, which dyed my dreams bloody... This must be an ominous sign... an ominous sign..."

Repeating the last five words in a low voice, Guigui Fei fell into Yun Zhen's arms as if she had lost all her strength.

"At the beginning I said that if the peach blossoms outside the city were in full bloom, I would marry you... Unfortunately that spring did not come that year, and I entered the palace as a concubine... I know I should give up... I should give up, but I can never really give up... Yun Zhen, I always wonder, do you really love me? If you really love me, why have you never snatched me away? You just gave me to others... You are always too calm, I know I shouldn't blame you, because I am as calm as you, calm enough to know how to weigh the pros and cons, and understand what it means to be unable to disobey the emperor's orders and to be unable to control oneself... If you are a little crazier, I will be a little crazier too..."

Baogui Fei's other hand suddenly grabbed Yun Zhen's clothes and twisted them tightly. "... Yun Zhen, do you know that from childhood to adulthood, the only person I wanted to marry was you, and the children I wanted to have were only your children... I only wanted to be your woman... But you asked me to wake you up with a slap in the face, do you know that this is the same as asking me to wake myself up..."

What is the past, what is reality, and what are dreams and longings.

The boundaries of all this seem to have blurred.

The crying that Concubine Baogui tried hard to suppress could be heard intermittently in this solemn atmosphere.

"I also want to be as willful as Tianning, and as straightforward as Xiaozhao... I want to become more stupid, more dull... I don't understand what the overall situation is, what is important, and what the family's interests are... I only know how to love who I want to love and marry who I want to marry, simply, without knowing anything and without considering anything... How great it would be, Yunzhen, if I were such a person, how great it would be... If I were such a person, I wouldn't even dare to say I love you, I wouldn't even dare to be with you..."

She couldn't say any more, and Guigui Fei's voice was drowned out by her own sobs.

"Baoer..." Yun really didn't know how to comfort her. Perhaps all words were redundant at this moment.

If he couldn't let Concubine Baogui know that he was just like her, who also wanted to be stupid, to be idle, to cast aside all obstacles and restraints, to run wild and go crazy - he felt that he was not worthy of saying that he still loved her.

The orange lights burned quietly, and the dim glow looked so tired and fragile in the heavy night.

Yun Zhen let go of the hand that was strangling Baogui Fei's wrist, held up the tear-stained face of his beloved, gently sucked the salty liquid into his mouth, chewing the deepest and most painful taste of tears in the past ten years.

He once thought that he was the person who understood Baoer the best, and he also thought that he was the person who loved Baoer the most, but it was not until now that he finally realized that he was wrong - it turned out that he never understood that Baoer had such deep bitterness and pain in his heart.

"Baoer, I'm sorry... I didn't love you well enough..."

Today, ten years later, at this moment, I finally began to realize that perhaps my careful care for her over the past ten years was wrong... Perhaps what Baoer expected from the beginning was not care, but possession.

It is a madly possessive love that does not care about the object, the cost, the consequences, or life or death.

"Baoer, if you want to go crazy, I'll be with you... No matter what you want to do, I'll be with you, forever..."

He held the slightly trembling body of the person in his arms and sent the deepest love from his lips. The seductive body fragrance and the blurred tears were like a whirlpool, which drew him deeply into it, and he could no longer struggle or escape. Even if what awaited them in the end was only a catastrophe, at this moment, all the rationality and calmness were thrown away, leaving only the truest and deepest love buried in his heart.

The warm red curtains fell silently and gently, covering up the infinite spring scenery.

The orange light grew dimmer, and the dark shadows of the night gathered silently, suffocating the surroundings.

But those invisible uneasiness and ominousness seem to be no longer something to be feared.

Because at this moment, nothing is more real and more important than the warm body of the person in your arms.

***

At this moment, the door creaked slightly, and Xiaoyao's mind went blank as she closed the door.

She had been back for a long time, so long that she heard most of the conversation between Baogui Fei and Yun Zhen.

The most terrible thing has finally happened...the most ominous premonition has become a reality.

Xiao Yao felt cold all over, and she lowered her head and stared at the door that separated her from a disaster.

She didn't know why she closed the door, nor why she didn't scream. She didn't know anything, everything was just a subconscious reaction. But now she gradually calmed down, she knew she should stop it...

It's not too late now. If I push the door open again, everything can still be saved...

Xiao Yao slowly raised her hand. She really wanted to knock on the door. She tried hard to tell herself to knock, knock.

However, the hand raised to the ear could not fall.

"Empress...Empress..." Xiao Yao closed her eyes tightly and bit her lower lip until it bled.

Just when she made up her mind to knock on the door, her clenched fist was caught in mid-air!

Xiao Yao was so scared that she almost vomited her heart out of her mouth. She looked up suddenly and saw Xiao Shunzi from Xianke Pavilion standing in front of her.

Xiao Shunzi was the eunuch who served Yun Zhen. He was the one who drove the carriage on the day Ji Anni entered the palace. He was as worried and uneasy as Xiao Yao, but at this time he shook his head at Xiao Yao and held Xiao Yao's hand tightly, not allowing that hand to make any sound.

The moment Xiao Yao's eyes met Xiao Shunzi's, tears rolled out of her eyes all of a sudden, and she choked and murmured, "It will be too late if I don't knock... It will be too late if I don't knock..."

"It's too late."

Xiao Shunzi's voice was very low and deep, but very clear. He used an incredibly calm tone to misinterpret Xiao Yao's original intention and said, "They are already ten years late. Do you want them to be delayed even more?"

A trace of astonishment suddenly flashed across Xiaoyao's eyes, and her limbs suddenly went limp.

"What should I do now... I'm scared, I'm so scared..." Xiao Yao's limp body suddenly fell forward and fell into Xiao Shunzi's arms. She was weak all over, her limbs were soft, and she couldn't use any strength at all.

Xiao Shunzi hugged Xiao Yao and said, "I'm afraid too, maybe even more than you... I'm afraid they've chosen a path that will lead to eternal damnation."

But it is the bravest step in a decade.